For as long as I can remember, I have hated to have my picture taken. Most photos show me with a forced smile and an uncomfortable look in my eyes and in my body language. As an incest survivor, it makes sense that I struggle with issues of self-worth of feeling valued and authentic. I have always felt like another person living within my skin.
Like many sexual abuse/incest survivors, I remembered my abuse late in life. In fact, I was well into my 50s, when a ton of bricks fell on me, and the memories started flooding back. The memories were shocking, but I was not surprised. In fact, all of the strange thoughts and terrible feelings that I had suppressed for all of my life suddenly made sense.
My closest family members do not believe me, or as they say, “I believe that you believe it.” This is their way of protecting themselves from the terrible truth.
I have done so much work and am determined to have my inside match my outside. My ultimate goal is to be able to walk down the mirror aisle at Target or Home Depot and look at that woman on either side of me and think, “Wow, she is amazing. She looks happy and strong and beautiful. I would like to be her friend.” I am not there yet.
Metaphysical teacher, Louise Hay, focuses on what she calls “mirror work.”
The Mirror Principle, one of Louise’s core teachings, holds that our life experience mirrors our relationship with ourselves; unless we see ourselves as loveable, the world can be dark and lonely.
I am committed to crawling out of that dark and lonely room and beginning to see myself in the best possible light.
I invite you to come on this journey with me.
How to begin:
Purchase Louise Hay’s book: Mirror Work: 21 Days to Heal Your Life Paperback – March 22, 2016
Join me as I begin my Mirror Work journey and report daily. Do not worry if you pick up on Day 1 or Day 21 as I will post each day and then I will start again. This is a journey that I would like to experience with you. The goal is to help, support, and heal.
You are everything.
You are loved and supported.
You are the miracle.